helloooo everyone.. jus thought of dropping by to say hi to you all!! how is everyone?? im sure all of you are burning your midnight oil by now and getting ready for the SeASoN FiNale! well all the best to all of you! giv ur best shot and let god do the rest!! well i havent been blogging for sometime and thought of typing out something out cause there is such alot in ma heart. Well being having some sleepless nights and trying to finish up assignments. and now tryin to finish up exams. hopfully tim will run fast.. talking about time i cant imagine 6 months jus went really fast! but right now i just need a break! im really tired! i need to get som rest home!! well life has not been offering the very best but i aint gonna panic o worry about it. Certain stuff been happening around me and most of them have been jus reminding me about stuff. This lifestyle kinda takes me bak to the era where i was free after ma o/l's well i thought that no1 wil eva love me again and i know its true! i have come in to the same conclusion once again! and i know that how eva perfect ppl's lifes are things will not be the same with me. If you take life as a competition im waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayy behind right now. it kinda suxx as well but oh well.... sometimes it makes me think for a while put ma creativ pictures on and think how gifted other ppl are.. they seem to b havin all the happines in life. no regrets. they get all the love and support they need. hmmm i really thank god for there happiness! may there happiness grow more. thats the only thing i cud wish for right now.! turning the arrow towards me i know that im a seeker of somthing which i value for the rest of my life. im still seeking that thing which i have been longing for. while typing out this i feel that there is alot of sadness in my heart. But i just cant express all of them in words. it just doesnt work out! Moving on.. tomoro which is the last saturday the 5 mystery men will be performing together in church! Des-Con-David-Top & me.. da 5 of us bond so well in church and i jus love da understanding between us while we play! but des is leaving on sunday! which is tragic.. Guardian he is the word says it all! i really salute him! he just does not care about his happiness but always goes one extra mile jus to make the rest happy.. I have never seen a person like him in ma life and im glad that i got to know him! his life conversion and the way god talks to us through his life is surely a testimony to share always! My spiritual life has grown because of him and i have no regrets to say that!! sometimes lik a father, lik a brother, lik a friend lik an adult i look up to him all the time possible. I find it kinda easy to open up to him and i know since he is one step ahead he knows if there is anything wrong in me.. isnt that awesooooom??? im thinkin o taking a break after tomoro and playbak after i com again from sl... sometimes i jus feel that my life is pretty unstable... but he made it stable!! and also now he goes on his journey towards his success!i wish him all the best in life. and bro thank u always for being there for me... means so much! i wil never forget you!! Further on.. the drama continuation has been happening! this time its about playing with lives. For some love is a game and for some love is everything. Playing with somthing which is very precious is jus being a fool f them selves! well i wish i can talk but i wud rather stay quiet! no use of talking to them!! it will be surely a waste of time... I wish i can jus open up all those feelings and tell it out but sadly i cantt!! its all BLOCKED UP! cuase i really dunno how to tell it out! i just cant express my self these days! GRR it suxxxx ooh ya one important thing i wanted to type out was about random comments i got! som ppl try to jus b mean o sarcastic i dunno! but i feel sorry for the simple fact they cant realise that this is my page and i can write anything! i so do not offend anyone through my page! its jus that i write wat i wan and im tryin to express how i feel! well if som ppl cant appreciate that i cant help it! well guys i not scoldin to each and everyone of you kays?? so dont tak it hard! im sure the ppl know who im talkin about!! if they life bullshit o not i really dont care! and i cant help it cause it soo not ma problem! thats da main reason y they cant possibly handl there own relationship cuse o there EGO nothin my EGO hmmm well i jus wish there lives will be changed!! no offense kaysss chill chill i guess i gotta pen off for the moment! but stay tuned cause holidays gonna b awesom!! more posts, covers and awesom stuff coming uppppp!!! until then JIA YOU and GAMBATEH to all!! take care all! godbless!! see u all sooonn!!!
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