Where is the love?? - II another random page the book of life..

helloooo everyone.. jus thought of dropping by to say hi to you all!! how is everyone?? im sure all of you are burning your midnight oil by now and getting ready for the SeASoN FiNale! well all the best to all of you! giv ur best shot and let god do the rest!! well i havent been blogging for sometime and thought of typing out something out cause there is such alot in ma heart. Well being having some sleepless nights and trying to finish up assignments. and now tryin to finish up exams. hopfully tim will run fast.. talking about time i cant imagine 6 months jus went really fast! but right now i just need a break! im really tired! i need to get som rest home!! well life has not been offering the very best but i aint gonna panic o worry about it. Certain stuff been happening around me and most of them have been jus reminding me about stuff. This lifestyle kinda takes me bak to the era where i was free after ma o/l's well i thought that no1 wil eva love me again and i know its true! i have come in to the same conclusion once again! and i know that how eva perfect ppl's lifes are things will not be the same with me. If you take life as a competition im waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayy behind right now. it kinda suxx as well but oh well.... sometimes it makes me think for a while put ma creativ pictures on and think how gifted other ppl are.. they seem to b havin all the happines in life. no regrets. they get all the love and support they need. hmmm i really thank god for there happiness! may there happiness grow more. thats the only thing i cud wish for right now.! turning the arrow towards me i know that im a seeker of somthing which i value for the rest of my life. im still seeking that thing which i have been longing for. while typing out this i feel that there is alot of sadness in my heart. But i just cant express all of them in words. it just doesnt work out! Moving on.. tomoro which is the last saturday the 5 mystery men will be performing together in church! Des-Con-David-Top & me.. da 5 of us bond so well in church and i jus love da understanding between us while we play! but des is leaving on sunday! which is tragic.. Guardian he is the word says it all! i really salute him! he just does not care about his happiness but always goes one extra mile jus to make the rest happy.. I have never seen a person like him in ma life and im glad that i got to know him! his life conversion and the way god talks to us through his life is surely a testimony to share always! My spiritual life has grown because of him and i have no regrets to say that!! sometimes lik a father, lik a brother, lik a friend lik an adult i look up to him all the time possible. I find it kinda easy to open up to him and i know since he is one step ahead he knows if there is anything wrong in me.. isnt that awesooooom??? im thinkin o taking a break after tomoro and playbak after i com again from sl... sometimes i jus feel that my life is pretty unstable... but he made it stable!! and also now he goes on his journey towards his success!i wish him all the best in life. and bro thank u always for being there for me... means so much! i wil never forget you!! Further on.. the drama continuation has been happening! this time its about playing with lives. For some love is a game and for some love is everything. Playing with somthing which is very precious is jus being a fool f them selves! well i wish i can talk but i wud rather stay quiet! no use of talking to them!! it will be surely a waste of time... I wish i can jus open up all those feelings and tell it out but sadly i cantt!! its all BLOCKED UP! cuase i really dunno how to tell it out! i just cant express my self these days! GRR it suxxxx ooh ya one important thing i wanted to type out was about random comments i got! som ppl try to jus b mean o sarcastic i dunno! but i feel sorry for the simple fact they cant realise that this is my page and i can write anything! i so do not offend anyone through my page! its jus that i write wat i wan and im tryin to express how i feel! well if som ppl cant appreciate that i cant help it! well guys i not scoldin to each and everyone of you kays?? so dont tak it hard! im sure the ppl know who im talkin about!! if they life bullshit o not i really dont care! and i cant help it cause it soo not ma problem! thats da main reason y they cant possibly handl there own relationship cuse o there EGO nothin my EGO hmmm well i jus wish there lives will be changed!! no offense kaysss chill chill i guess i gotta pen off for the moment! but stay tuned cause holidays gonna b awesom!! more posts, covers and awesom stuff coming uppppp!!! until then JIA YOU and GAMBATEH to all!! take care all! godbless!! see u all sooonn!!!

where is the love????

hi hi well its june already and i cant believe 6 months of the year hav just passed by.... sigh sigh been away from home for 6 months and i think its a long time! sigh suxx to b out o home. WeLl da reason i thought o bloggin today is cause im going to open another chapter.. hmmm well today i thought i blogging about LoVe
well honestly i think Love is crazy and its the most stupidest thing which can happen in a persons life! and u give out ur heart to som1 at the end of the day u jus end up being such a LOOSER. well my friend came up to me and told me his story and i felt all this thoughts so im gonna blog it all out! jus wanna say if u who are reading this are lovers.. im sorry! its jus me writing ma thoughts! so please dont get offended! this is jus me me me and me!
so im NOT gonna publish his story cause its privvate! well wat i think is this
Love between 2 ppl is FAKE and seriously with his story i jus hated the word LOVE!
everyone thinks that loVE is a nice sweet thing! but its not! its alL BULLSHIT to the maxx.. cause there is no use of love! a person can b his own and hav there own time! well lOve is a waste of money, time and energy... cause the out come is jus 0!!!! u get nothin outta it! u can debate me anytime! wel u lik a person and u do everything! and at the end o the day u jus end up being such a big looser! cause that person wil jus leav u! and then poor u wil b jus ended up in a corner sheddin tears! and then the person u liked?? heh NO WAY! that person wil neva look at u! and even bother to see if ur cryin o hurt o wat! they wil jus move on with there lifes! so who becomes the looser then???? if they DID care and have a thing called a HEART im sure they wud stop by and listen and b sensitive to other ppl's hearts also! but its always dat case!! but da thin is they arent sensitiv! and they jus dont bother! jus look in to there personal benifit! haha ppl hav started to see benifits in lOve! thats y! and now Love has become a business! it is! cause a person goes on trade! and the other person actually sells the other! and then som1 wil purchase it! use it and throw it away! and then hearts jus get broken! omg seriously ppl put ur thinkin caps on!! where have u been??
where is that love where 2 ppl cared for each other and said that love has no barriers??? where they said love has no colour, financial, age, education o any stupid reason??? that era wil neve com again! now its not lik that! oh ok ur HOT, Ur RICH, UR AWESOM, UR FAMOUS ok i'll go out with u! or else?? NO ur jus a jobless looser in negatv terms! and in positiv terms.. Ermm i dont think wil wrk out cause our lifes are diff! - BULLSHIT!
if u realy put ur heart and soul u can do it! atleast now ppl jus think o a person with CONDITIONS! its lik Love becomes a programming language
IF the person is hot, rich, famous then
i love him
else
no i hate him
end if!
Ermm our stupid lifes are jus driven by HEARTLESS things which is sad... hmm neva knew that this wud happen!! well im really sorry to ma friend and i think hop this wil b an eye opener to all of you guys! jus think and watch out ppls! dont wan any1 to get hurt cause o love!
and lastly i wud lik to say that LOVE is jus one stupid HOLE! any comments welcom! but ppl all i can say is that EVERYone deserves a chance! wel its upto ppl to SAVE the beautiful thin called love or to DESTROY it foreva!!
this is SeAnIe signing off temp hop to com out with a part 2 for this! lets see lahh! if im free hehe!nyway peace to all!!